Lazy days

Listening to: Careful - Paramore

So, today has been completely uneventful. Spent the whole day in my room making playlists and watching House. Time well spent if you ask me; although the boredom of having no uni work or full time job to go to is starting to get to me, which is surprising. When I do have things to do, I come up with every possible way of avoiding them.

Spent a lot of time talking to Lauren last night/this morning. Only known her 2 months or so, but it feels like I've known her forever. I miss her a lot; definite downside of no longer being at uni - my uni friends live at the opposite end of the country. She's gonna come visit soon though, hopefully for my birthday. Gonna go visit her too; it's only fair that Cov gets the pleasure of my presence.

She drew this ♥



Other news - Beth text me earlier which was nice, it's strange being home without her around. She's not too far away though, I'm seeing her Saturday. We're going to a gig in town, it's free and there's a few decent bands playing so it should be good. A guy who I used to like a lot is gonna be there though, he's in one of the bands. Seen him a few times since we 'broke up' (we weren't actually together) and it's not very pleasant; makes me feel weird, think I'm afraid of liking him again. Oh well, just gonna have to deal with it.

Saw Becca yesterday too, she's doing medicine at uni, so she doesn't have much free time. Me and Justine went round to hers, Becca drank tea and we had a good old girly chat. Her boyfriend's taking her to Chicago next month, we think he might propose. They've been together 5 years now and although she's only 18, she's totally ready for it. I've told her if he does she needs to let me throw her an engagement party, excited!

Still haven't done any exercise today, ah well...I'm sticking to my diet at least. Had a cheeky look at the scales and i've lost 3 pounds already! Hope I can keep this up.

Let's start over

Lisetning to: We Danced Together - The Rakes

I moved to London, went to uni, met Annie and Lauren, had a threesome with a gorgeous guy and a beautiful girl, learned to love cider, drank too much vodka, fell in love with a gay guy, felt like a foreigner in my own country and threw up in some of the most inappropraite places imaginable. It was the time of my life. 4 grand and 2 months later, I'm back home; a uni drop out, with thousands of pounds of debt and some what cloudy view of the direction I want my life to take.

Most of my friends have moved away, I have no boyfriend and as of today I work part time in the local pub. Also thinking about doing some kind of volunteering to occupy some of plentyful free time.

So, to give my life some sort of 'meaning' (not sure that's the right word to use) I've complied a list of things I want to do. See below:

1. Save some money.
This means I have to spend less, which in turn means drinking less alcohol and buying less clothes. Not sure I can stick to the latter, or the former for that matter. To help with this, I intend to:
2. Shop in charity shops.
You find some absolute gems looking through rails of other peoples cast offs - I get a cheap new wardrobe, whilst giving to the needy at the same time. Win win.
3. Quit smoking.
I have asthma, so starting was never a good idea in the first place. It's also a very expensive habbit. Stopping it will not only improve the health of by body, but of my purse too (I did just have a cigarette when walking along the beach, but it was only half, and it wasn't even mine.)
4. EAT LESS
This one is very important. I've put on a whole 2 stone since the beginning of the summer; simply unacceptable and I refuse to carry this excess weight on my body any longer. Bye bye fatty, hello Slimming World. (Since I got home on Friday, I've eaten nothing but healthy food, with the exception of a hotdog whilst at a fireworks display on Sunday night. Go me!) I also intend to keep a diary of everything I eat and drink. Fun times.
5. Go running/to the gym
Excercise will (hopefully) make my diet all the more effective. Although so far I've failed at this entirely. I've been telling myself I'm gonna go for a run or to the gym every day for the past 5 days, it's yet to happen...there's always tomorrow.
6. Sleep with more girls, and less guys.
Guys I've been sexually/romantically interested in so far have all turned out to be pricks. Time for a gender change; it's been too long. Hello ladies.

Also, just got home from spending some time with a girl I used to be getting with. Was kind of having wandering thoughts that maybe ending stuff with her wasn't a good idea; but I've decided to nip this in the bud. She has a new girlfriend now and I'm happy for her. When I was with her I didn't want to be; seems like a classic case of wanting what I can't have. Definitely time for some new blood.